I thought that this year I would be better prepared for the holidays, but because I thought that, they just snuck up on me. We had Thanksgiving and I was busy helping out and then all of a sudden, it is almost Christmas.
I had been doing ok until today when all I did was stay in bed and cry. I could easily convince myself to run off and hide in the woods until after the holidays.
I was so sad today. I missed my daughter so badly.
Does this get better? It has been two and a half years. Am I just a wimp? I honestly still have no perspective on how to handle my situation. Sometimes I think I am ok. I think I give the general appearance of being ok... But the truth is I have no answers about anything. I am lost. I want to be strong... I want to be functioning. But I also want to hide from the world.
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